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What is it? When..
Fall into something we never felt before.
When we couldn't swim but we would drowning for that guy.
When we were scared of heights but we would fall too.
When the feet are weak but we were willing to climb.
How is it? Who could describe that kinda terrible feeling?

Day by day we went through together
Time flies
And finally I realized that,
The hardest pain is being homesick to the heart that never wanting you.

Sometimes I ask my self in the depth of night
Why am I the traveller when you are the destination of someone else.
Those nights, when my mind went into war with my heart.
Fighting between what I knew and what I felt.
Hoping one day these worries would disappear in the darkness.
Without coming back, again.

Up and down, I've gone through to this 21.
One thing the world has taught me
We have to motivate our ownselves in every good or bad situations.
And I just wanna try
See the result
Could I?

Hey ya, dude!
You can steal my smiles, but it won't be long.
You can tear my heart out, but I know how to heal.
I promise, I promise my self that this tears
This tears won't fall down again as easy as the days I was close to you
(Icha, 2017)